January 2010
I can't Believe
I can’t believe I didn’t realize this. A couple of weeks ago I had a dream and I described it. I just realize the dream I had was with my boyfriend NOW. I don’t know how I had forgotten that dream. Now I’m scared and well. I’m at lost. This really scares me.
i'm happy
so yesterday i was ushering for my schools musical and i started to talk to this guy. i don’tknow i gave him my number durning act 2. after the musical ended. i left and well he started to text me. then when i got home he asked me out. and i said yes.
This guy doesn’t have the best rep. he’s know as an arrogant jerk really. and i know he can be a jerk because he went out with...
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Random Fact # 11
I really like romantic comedies
Random noticable guys
I bored so I’m going to analyze a couple of guys I’ve notice in my school that are in my grade. Their is no order It just in the order I see them in. First is the kid that sits next to me in English. I’ll refer to him as G he’s a wrestler not the greatest looking but there’s something about him that seems like he’s a good guy and after a couple of girlfriends...
SI
is scratching words in to your hands considered carving…
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Random fact # 10
I sleep with a blanket I’ve had since I was 3 or 4
Something insided me feels different and i for the life of me can’t figure out why.
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Hope and wishing to make myself a better future
Tomarrow will be the two years since I cut my self and I don’t know how to feel about this because well how do feel proud of yourself for something you hated doing. I wish I had someone I could really talk to about this but I don’t. I really hope I find someone to talk to soon. I hate feeling like I’m alone on this. I always hope I’m not and maybe it’s that hope that keeps me some what sane. I...
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Random fact #9
I have the strangest ideas to write about
Dreams can mess you up
I woke up and had a dream. It really freaked me out. When I was in the dream I enjoyed it but now that I’m awake I find it really strange. Before I go into details of the dream I guess I should say more about myself.
About 3 years ago I made probably one of the biggest mistakes I’ve ever made. I cut myself and I guess I enjoyed it. I now have a pain addiction and it scares me...
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Sweet 16 Stress that's not even mine
So this morning I thought would be really good. I woke up early by about an hour. I straightened my hair got dresses. I turned on my cell and watched it have a mini spaz attack. I got about 12 texts. I texted my friend good morning and got my books ready and headed downstairs to my kitchen. She texted me back and told me about another friends sweet 16 coming up. I got really excited about that....